Confusing Life

My life has always been confusing to me. One minute it's perfect and the next it's not. One minute I'm really happy and the next, depressed. Has anyone else felt like this at times? I went to Missouri last weekend to visit my family because my grandpas health has declined and I feel that since I've been back that I need to make some changes in my life.

The first thing I want to start changing is my health. I never really paid attention to the crap I'd eat and drink. Since I went to Missouri I have only had 2 sodas (in the one week I have been back) and fast food once. I've been mainly drinking water and eating chicken and veggies. I have my best friend Rikki to thank because I look up to him and he tries to live a healthy lifestyle and I tend to copy what he does. So this whole week I have been eating better and feeling better about myself. It's great. I actually feel more alive than I've felt in a long time.

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Decided to break this up over a couple of days because it's been so overwhelming to write and even think about. Seriously, my head feels like it's going to explode. I've been talking to my mom about stuff and she's been very helpful and full of great advice and stuff. I <3 her. I just know there are steps I need to make to better my life and if not, I'll be miserable for the rest of my life. I just hate having to make choices like these. I'll keep you all updated..sorry this is so vague.